The Days without Mirror (Part 25)

Sometimes I thought that the existence of Mohammad Reza was somehow made distance between Hossein and me. Hossein spent much time for Mohammad Reza, almost all the time he was at home. When Mohammad Reza slept after lots of playing, Hossein was so tired of accompanying him in playing that had no energy. So, he immediately fell asleep because of fatigue and I knew that tomorrow we had a busy day again.

The Days without Mirror (Part 24)

Two years after Hossein returned home, Ali got married in 2000. Perhaps because of social conditions of that time, and seeing some women and girls whose hijab and manner of behavior caused Hosseins surprise and suffering, as well as his emotional conditions that caused he has willed Ali got married sooner. I opposed Alis marriage at the age of twenty two. It was too soon for him. He still did not have a picture of life partner.

The Days without Mirror (Part 23)

Early on, Ali felt strange to Hossein. He called his father, ‘Hossein’; as if he could not easily call him, ‘father’. I realized that he wished to hug and kiss Hossein, but something prevented him; neither Hossein had seen and felt Ali is growing up, nor Ali had never understood who his father was and what his feeling was to him. They could not attract each other. I and Hossein were wife and husband.

The Days without Mirror (Part 22)

During ten years of living with Hossein these nightmares continued and never ended. I was using sedative since I was thirty-three, but Hossein refused to use it; instead, he sought help of smoking. Sometimes, I woke up at midnight and saw that he has sat on the edge of bed and was busy smoking. He got up a few times during the night and repeated it.

The Days without Mirror (Part 21)

Like a hotel, the door of our house was open twenty-four hours for a week. We had collected all furniture and tables and taken them to our neighbors house. I slept in the kitchen at nights. With a pillow and a blanket, I cowered in a corner. Although we provided foods outside home, but I did not have enough time to entertain the guests with tea and fruit and pastry.

The Days without Mirror (Part 20)

In March 1998, the Air Force and the Department of Prisoner of War phoned me and said, ‘Most likely Hossein Lashgari will be repatriated on April 1998.’ I did not travel on that Nowruz holidays. Wherever I went, returned home very soon to be in access in case they rang me. Until the 6th of April, at 8:30 am, the air force called and told me, ‘Mrs. Lashgari, do praying, we’re going to do negotiation.

The Days without Mirror (Part 19)

In less than a month, I was contacted by the Air Force. It was fourth or fifth of June, 1995. The Department of Prisoner of War and Missing in Action announced that the Red Cross has seen Hossein Lashgari and allowed him to write a letter. I did not believe. I thought that it started again, hopefulness and then hopelessness. But this time, Hossein really sent a letter. My hand shook when I was handed his letter;

The Days without Mirror (Part 18)

In the summer of 1988, after The Resolution was adopted, the whisper of POWs repatriation spread like wildfire. At the new house, Ravadgar family was our neighbor in the first floor. Mr. Ravadgar was one of POWs. The Red Cross had enrolled his name and he wrote letter for his wife and children. Mr. Ravadgar and his wife, Nasrin, had a girl and a boy.

The Days without Mirror (Part 17)

One year before Ali reached school-age, my older brother talked to my father: ‘It is not good for Manijeh and Ali to live more with you. How long these conditions last is unclear.’ It was difficult for my father to digest this issue; he declined. But my brother spoke with him at different times. ‘Manijeh has to stand on her foot.’ he said, ‘she should live in her own home. It helps to accept her life as it is.’

The Days without Mirror (Part 16)

Twenty days passed. Every morning I woke up hoping to turn on the TV and heard that the war has been over. Days were slow and long. As if there was no passage of moments. In the morning, when I woke up, thought: Oh my God, when it is noon. And at noon, I felt why the night does not come. I constantly cried, either when I was among family members, or secretly in a corner of house.
The Session "Reflection in Oral History"(III)

Let us take critique seriously and be vulnerable!

According to Iranian oral history website, the first session titled "Reflection in Oral History" held at Dr. Parham Hall in National Library and Archives of Iran on Wednesdays evening, 27 February 2019. In the first part of the session, you read the words of Mohsen Kazemi, an oral history researcher and memoirs of Islamic Revolution, Mahmoud Sadat, a member of the faculty of Imam Khomeini Research Center, and Gholamreza Azizi, director of the Institute of ...
Mansoureh Ghadiri Talked about Behjat Afraz

You must be both a mother and a father

My wife had the longest captivity and I got the most energy from Ms. Behjat Afraz. I was at the age of 28 when my husband became missing, and when it became clear he was captured, I was very busy and I did not have leisure time; like a soldier who wears military boot in the morning, I slept upon my book and pamphlet. I was a professor at Shahid Rajaee University and from there I went ...
Baharieh (on spring)

The Unheard

It has been for years in such days or better to say that in a specific day, hour, minute and even second, the new year will be arrived. Just like a new-born child. And it is for all both auspicious and pleasing and may be exciting. Although the latter, that is, birth of children, is at least a year older than New Year but both of them have come to this place alongside each other.
The Session "Reflection in Oral History"(I)

A talk on the real voice of oral history

According to Iranian oral history website, the first session "Reflection in Oral History" held at Dr. Parham Hall in National Library and Archives of Iran on Wednesdays evening, 27 February 2019. In a note dated on 18 November 2019, Mohsen Kazemi who is a researcher in oral history and memoirs of Islamic Revolution, he asked questions entitled "Warning! Oral History Voice Is Coming", around the situation of Iranian oral history which encountered with oral history commentators.